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16 Oct

Although I lead a rather pleasant and non-stressful existence, I somehow have found a way to schedule practically every hour of my life for the past few months.  Day to day, this is fine, however after a few months of this I am B.U.R.N.T O.U.T.  I hadn’t realized how burnt out I had become until I began looking at my impending vacation as a chore.  It was another thing on my schedule and all I REALLY wanted was a free weekend at home with the Hubby and the cat.

Now on vacation in Florida with good friends and NOTHING on the schedule until my flight home Sunday, this escape what more what I needed than I realized.  I have no concept of time or date, and I’m not sure my body knows what to do when I don’t have a To-Do list or what to do when it gets enough sleep(because day to day sleep is low on the To-Do list).  This strikes me as quite ironic since only 7 months ago, I was unemployed with nothing to do on a day to day basis except watch CSI and NCIS reruns, and I wished for nothing more than a reason to set my alarm in the morning.  I guess you need to be careful what you wish for.

Taking the time to STOP has given me time to actually think.  While here I have started to read Gretchen Rubin‘s The Happiness Project.  I must admit, I am rather ADD when it comes to reading lately- I am also in the midst of Chris Guillebeau‘s The Art of Non-Conformity.   While here in Florida, I handed The Art of Non-Conformity to my friend to read while I started on the other- I owned TAoNC afterall (the library didn’t have it yet) and I need to return The Happiness Project to the library sooner than I realized.  My agenda for tomorrow? reading by the pool or beach.  That it.  🙂  Anywho, back to my reflections on life.

*Disclaimer* there may have been a few glasses of wine imbibed before this blog post.

In The Happiness Project, where I am currently reading, she is talking about how she wrote down her goals, her plan to achieve said goals, and her rules to live by.  Although all of us probably have these topics floating around in our heads, few of us have written them down…. putting them on paper makes them tangible.  For instance, I may have stated to you that the GOAL of this blog is to figure out who I want to be in life, however, aside from making these statements, I have yet to figure out defined goals as well as milestones which will get me closer to my goals.  That, I feel should be my next task in this journey.  I need to write down what is important/priority in my life, what makes me happy, and what steps I feel will get me closer to figuring out my life by 30 as (laughably) planned.  Over the next week, I VOW that I will not only contemplate these topics, but commit them to paper, and ultimately to this blog… and you can (and should) harass me as necessary if I do not post them in a timely manor.

Who is adult?

16 Sep

I don’t know about you, but since I hit my mid-20s, I’ve started thinking about who I used to consider ‘adults.’  When I was little, I thought 20 was  when I’d be an adult with it all figured out.  At 20, I thought 25 would be the ‘magic age.’  I can confidently say, 25 was the age I had nothing figured out.  Now at 26, even though I know better, I still think I’ll have it all figured out by 30.  Yes, yes, I hear you snickering.  I am fully aware of my delusions and I accept them.  I have friends from ages 23 to 45, and I don’t think a single one would admit to being an ‘adult.’

Even though I have yet to reach the elusive ‘magic age’ of adulthood, its been lurking around corners and sneaking up on me lately.

I went to a First Time Homebuyer Seminar at a local bank yesterday which then prompted a conversation with the dear husband about when to start looking at houses.  I say January since our current lease is until May.  He says why not start looking now?  I may be openly dreaming about a house, but on the inside, I’m freaking out about such a big step!  I’m just getting used to taking care of the cutest cat ever (she is, deal with it) and I don’t think my fragile psyche could take such a step right now.   I started a new job 6 months ago, the Hubby started a new job 4 months ago, and we got a cat about 3 months ago, among other things.  I am a creature of habit and there’s been a lot of change!  I am mentally prepared to start looking at houses around the new year.  That I could handle.  We agreed upon starting to talk to people about financing but not actively looking yet.  Phew, mental crisis averted.  Adult commitments averted… for now.

Strangely enough, I don’t consider the fact that I’m married to be a scary adult commitment.  It was a natural step that involved a big party(Woo-Hoo!)- no major soul searching involved.  Hubby and I had been together for almost 6 years prior to marriage, so being tied to him for life was an emotional commitment I had made long ago.  Picking out a house feels much more daunting!